SUGA SUGA SUGA

What a man can't handle doesn't exactly make him a man, now does it?

SLEEP

too many thoughts.
too little energy.

AND IT ALL FALLS DOWN

stare at me like somethings wrong with me and i'll stare back with a smirk. i feel almost NOTHING anymore. when you think that things are going perfectly fine, mhm, it's no where near being content.

just take it one day at a time.

TWO, ONE TO NONE

the best person to get fucked over by is your self. i put my feelings aside and asked god to make the right thing happen whether it tore me apart or not. i definitely knew that someone was bound to get hurt no doubt but i just didn't think that it'd happen so soon. never, ever, ever, in my life have i caught this feeling before. thanks man

ON ANOTHER NOTE
i am getting sick of you. go home.

MIND SET

yep, i got my eyes set on you and i don't care what they say.

I FOUND ME.

"I DON'T KNOW WHY WE ALL HANG ON TO SOMETHING WHEN WE KNOW WE'RE BETTER OFF LETTING GO. IT'S LIKE WE'RE SCARED TO LOSE WHAT WE DON'T REALLY HAVE. SOME OF US SAY WE'D RATHER HAVE SOMETHING THAN ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, BUT THE TRUTH IS, TO HAVE IT HALFWAY IS HARDER THAN NOT HAVING IT AT ALL." -AP

there's this little tear in my heart. where i had my hopes up for something that i agreed wouldn't exactly evolve into "something" until you made it happen. that's the only thing that upsets me. the thought of my walls getting torn down by the guy who knew that i was afraid to become something more than this. since when was saving your heart, heart breaking?
fool me once, shame on you.
fool me twice, shame on me.

DIED IN YOUR ARMS

i just destroyed us.

TWISTED

okay right now is the most legit time to write a little note about whats going on right now. witnessing a close friend or a family member go through something that once made you feel as if you literally had to hold your chest together because you sensed that you were going to falling apart. it's pain. i won't lie, i will never lie about these kind of issues. because it is seeerious. it's just as close to being held hostage or body wrapped at a retarded center. you never know, that's the thing. shit can get so dysfunctional and abnormally unreal you don't know who the hell you are anymore. i say, feel the pain. don't ever stare at a broken hearted person and say it's okay because no, it's not. and it won't be for awhile.

"sometimes it's good to feel broken. it's the one time you actually feel human. the pain will throb harder every day but it's okay. feel all of the pain you possibly can because the next thing you know you'll be so sick and tired of it to the point where you have almost nothin else to do but move on."

on another note, i've never felt this way for someone in so long. to where he brought out a totally different light in me and managed to help me gain a new perspective. that's the thing about perfection, there's always a catch.

SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOT

i just searched up "forget" on google to make sure it was an actual word :| when you do shit like that, it definitely means you've been drinking (y) and for the first time in my life. i looked at a guy, stared at his lips and felt desperate to feel how good it would of been if i kissed him. LOL yep, i'm comin clean, i definitely had something to drink.