okay right now is the most legit time to write a little note about whats going on right now. witnessing a close friend or a family member go through something that once made you feel as if you literally had to hold your chest together because you sensed that you were going to falling apart. it's pain. i won't lie, i will never lie about these kind of issues. because it is seeerious. it's just as close to being held hostage or body wrapped at a retarded center. you never know, that's the thing. shit can get so dysfunctional and abnormally unreal you don't know who the hell you are anymore. i say, feel the pain. don't ever stare at a broken hearted person and say it's okay because no, it's not. and it won't be for awhile.
"sometimes it's good to feel broken. it's the one time you actually feel human. the pain will throb harder every day but it's okay. feel all of the pain you possibly can because the next thing you know you'll be so sick and tired of it to the point where you have almost nothin else to do but move on."
on another note, i've never felt this way for someone in so long. to where he brought out a totally different light in me and managed to help me gain a new perspective. that's the thing about perfection, there's always a catch.